After venting to a friend about something I was frustrated about, she asked me (sincerely asked me):
"Do you KNOW who you are?" ....if that's not a wake-up call, I don't know what is.........
Thank You GOD for pulling me out of this rut! AAAH!
I'm not even going to hold back, these past months I have really been putting myself in some situations that have compromised my self respect, dignity, my family name(if you're into that), and all of the above. And I just came to a point of exhaustion. I had to really stop and think like:
"WTF am I doing?"
"This is not my life."
"I dont come from this"
"Why do I even think that this is acceptable?"
That's when I came to a moment of 'No Shit, Sherlock', you have the option to not live like this. Looking back to where I was vs where I am today. I had to own the FACT that I'm worth more than the scraps that I been accepting as 'reality'.
And that's just what it is! Some days you got to fight to remind yourself that yes you are more.... Let go of resisting your growth. Even if being in this 'new' space of growth seems uncomfortable and unfamiliar, you belong where you are. There is no point in holding onto habits that just don't make sense to where you need to be presently. And don't feel obliged to old habits, it DOES NOT validate your authenticity.
But I say all of that to say this:
It is not an an easy feat. But in the same sense, 'finding comfort' in old ways won't feel right anymore. I will tell you, it is legit a FULL BODY DISCOMFORT. I just had to take a deep breath and step into the now. God has been doing some serious work on me and I'm so happy about it and have been reminding myself that:
Yes! I belong where I am. Yes I'm where I am on my own merit and rightfully so.
Your purpose requires you to be yourself and no one else. However, that journey will always be a journey of self discovery, of self nurturing, of self promotion, of self expression in whatever that ends up looking like for you. Own YOUR identity and don't compromise because in that you are only questioning existence.
Got it???..... Good! Because that concludes my rant on purging baggage.